When I...

I have decided what I want to be when I grow up. I want to be a photographer/writer/vintage clothing store owner. And perhaps I'd like to run a no-kill animal shelter as well.

Seriously. Why can't I make as much doing those things as I do at my salary job? Maybe I can...? I don't know...who can afford to take the plunge? I don't need or want a lot of money. Really. Just enough to get by like I do right now is pretty ok.

I hate my job right now. I think I'd stick with research if I could find a job researching something I'm interested in. They pulled the HIV/AIDS rug out from under me at my current place of employment and left me with only biodefense work...I believe I've written about this already and I am not interested in working for the redundant department of redundancy, so I'll leave it at that. I'm tired.

Guilty

I am totally guilty of the silliest thing ever. I have a celebrity crush. I know, it's stupid and pointless, but I can't help it. It doesn't happen very often - and no disrespect to my former celebrity crushes, John Cusack and Edward Norton, but after seeing Ryan Gosling in Half Nelson I think I'd pretty much have all of his babies. I've seen him in other films before...a few which I thought were excellent, but for some reason he particularly struck me in this role - definitely worthy of his Oscar nomination. He has this way of producing a certain expression on his face, this hurting and embarrassed, yet knowing puppy dog look that gives you butterflies in your tum. One scene in particular keeps playing through my mind...I won't spoil it if you haven't seen it, but the scene was pretty moving in general and that look on his face solidified it. Alright alright, I'm done. I'll stop this 13 year old nonsense now. ;-)